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[libertango]

I really regret not posting lately. It's not for lack of things to say, or events happening. There was the charity dinner at a McDonald's in Newcastle for the family of a slain King County Sheriff, where I got to meet the honest-to-God Sheriff of King County. There was Fourth of July from the top of the Space Needle, fireworks visible from all around Puget Sound. There was the Fast Horse Hootenanny at the Crocodile Cafe, with 4-count-'em-4 bands (the Wayward Shamans, Minus 5, Tuatara, and CeDell Davis), even if they all did turn out to be various constellations of the same 10 or so musicians. There was the social swirl of three parties in 24 hours last weekend (a Clarion West party, a barbeque with my prior hosts and many of their friends from work, and Karawynn's "Three of Us" Housewarming). There was the call in to 710 KIRO when they had a substitute host with an appallingly bad take on the War On Some Drugs. There was the interview -- today -- with a Big Name Employer Whose Name I Dare Not Speak For Fear of Jinxing Everything... and I have no real idea how well or badly that really went. {sigh} At least they told me they'd let me know in the next two days, and unlike previous interviewers (like, say, Timberline Software in Portland -- stay far, far, away, and short the stock if you have the capital for it), they probably'll keep to that.

It's just that I feel entirely too stream-of-consciousness-y, and I'm not sure at all how coherent I sound. Things that seem to me to hang together and feel connected... I say them, and try to explain, or write them down, and it's as if they're proofs with many many postulates missing. Nothing feels cohesive if I consider it for more than about five seconds.

This goes well beyond my usual worries about whether or not I'm putting my foot in my mouth, shaking vigourously, and echoing globally.

I'm not saying y'all can help, or anything. I'm just trying to explain. And not sure if I'm doing a good job. Which is kind of the problem in a meta-nutshell.

Comments

[holyoutlaw.livejournal.com]

This made sense to me. If that helps. If it's help you're wanting. Does that make sense? Just kidding. Um, wait...

[zinnea.livejournal.com]

I was reading my friends of friends when I found your post--I was at the Hootenany too. It was really great and I enjoyed it a lot and...um...I dunno, I just thought I'd say hi since I was here.

be yourself

[who-is-she.livejournal.com]

I dont' worry, when I feel stream-of-conscious-y,.... I just let myself be that. Dont' try to use proper grammar if it's not happening. Don't try to predict whether it makes sense to anyone else... or yourself next time you read it. Journals are for recording who we are and what we think..... not just who we are when we think we're coherent. (smile)